Have you ever wondered what it is all for?
Why people surround themselves with people just to be lonely, rejected, and abandoned in their greatest time of need?

It’s a nasty disease! Everyone says you can’t live without it.
People only bring pain, suffering and heartache.

Lovers grow old and tired. They are always looking to see if someone is better suited to their needs. They move from one person to the next breaking hearts and crushing anyone that gets in their way of what they think happiness is.

Dreamers are always searching for something better, a better life that they will never have.

Friends come and go. They stick around until they loose interest then you are forgotten. You sit there and wonder what happened.

They say time heals everything but it doesn’t!
It does nothing but more harm!

I only hope that my children never have to feel this way. But hoping that humane nature will change is just stupid. They will go through every emotion in the world. Feelings of abandonment, Love that will tantalize their every sense. Hate that will feel like boulders in their stomachs. Betrayal that will eat them alive, Revenge that is sweeter than honey.

I guess all that I can do is put one foot in front of the other. Try real hard not to shut my emotions down and try really hard not to keep building my wall. If the walls get any higher my heart will just shrivel up and die instead of hurting like it does. But sometimes I wonder if it would be better if the pain would just go away.

July 5, 2005

Sunshine Wood