I just want to wish everyone a happy 4th of July. I know it is a bit late but things have been a little busy here. We took Abigail to San Marco to see the fireworks and she had a blast. We were on like a football feild and we just let her run about. It is amazing how fast and far a baby can go. We took turns walking with her. The fireworks were beautiful.

Have you ever wondered what it is all for?
Why people surround themselves with people just to be lonely, rejected, and abandoned in their greatest time of need?

It’s a nasty disease! Everyone says you can’t live without it.
People only bring pain, suffering and heartache.

Lovers grow old and tired. They are always looking to see if someone is better suited to their needs. They move from one person to the next breaking hearts and crushing anyone that gets in their way of what they think happiness is.

Dreamers are always searching for something better, a better life that they will never have.

Friends come and go. They stick around until they loose interest then you are forgotten. You sit there and wonder what happened.

They say time heals everything but it doesn’t!
It does nothing but more harm!

I only hope that my children never have to feel this way. But hoping that humane nature will change is just stupid. They will go through every emotion in the world. Feelings of abandonment, Love that will tantalize their every sense. Hate that will feel like boulders in their stomachs. Betrayal that will eat them alive, Revenge that is sweeter than honey.

I guess all that I can do is put one foot in front of the other. Try real hard not to shut my emotions down and try really hard not to keep building my wall. If the walls get any higher my heart will just shrivel up and die instead of hurting like it does. But sometimes I wonder if it would be better if the pain would just go away.

July 5, 2005

Sunshine Wood

After 10 years and a couple of months we renewed our vows. We did a Christian one the first time so this time we did a Wiccan one and jumped over a broom with Abigail. It was really nice and the little Chapel was in just a beautiful place. It was a little open Chapel that sat on a cliff overlooking trees and hills. It was wonderful. I will have pictures up soon of both the wedding and of my birthday.

It’s my birthday today and it has been quite a day. Tomorrow I go into surgery for my ears. I will have tubes put in and I ‘m very nervious. My mom got me a beautiful jewelery set. Thank you Mom for the money for the surgery and the jewelery